Smallish Update

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Here's a short update to make up for the novel I wrote last time. The first day post-chemo was rough. I woke up at 5am feeling chilled and feverish. I had been warned multiple times to watch for fever, so I kept taking my temp, but I wasn't too hot, just achy and feeling feverish. I went to Target anyway--I've had a list of to-do's I wanted to get done all week, dammit, and I was going to do them! It went on this way for the rest of the day--I felt as though I had a terrible case of the flu--aches all over, a fever of 100 degrees all day. No nausea, though, for which I'm grateful.

Apparently, the Taxotere is what gives the flu-like side effects. Last night I slept really well and am feeling enormously better this morning. I can understand the depression and despair that must go along with feeling really crappy for a long time. The whole rationale Tang and Kanard gave, too, for hormonal therapy increasing "quality of life" is also making sense. I'm sure I haven't seen the worst of it yet, and I'll admit it scares me. I don't like feeling sick, and all of a sudden I start to realize that this is all somewhat of a gamble anyway. My cousin Sarah came over after we'd met at Target yesterday and taken the kids to Chick-Fil-A. Thank God she did. I just rested for awhile while she took the girls out on the bike train. She's so brave.

My friend Abra came over and did Reiki on me, which was immensely relaxing--I think I fell asleep several times, in between Katie coming in to inform me of phone calls and Eliza waking up from her nap. Eliza came in and lay on my chest and got some Reiki too. She's such a little snuggler, and I love the feel of the weight of her little body on my chest when I lay down. I think that's one of the reasons I kept procreating--they're so smallish and with those little cheeks--who can possibly resist? Abra's husband Kevin supervised the kids while we did "relaxation" as we told the kids.

Sweet Mary Ligon from church brought over a gorgeous fruit salad, out of which I caught Megan, after dinner was over, carefully picking out and eating all the raspberries, and a chicken stew. It was delicious. I cannot believe the continued generosity of so many people. Please accept our thanks.

I think I'll take a bike ride today. It looks to be gorgeous.

Ta-ta for now!

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